I don’t want to get married because I want to keep a dream or 2 alive. Honestly, getting married is the furthest thing from my mind but every time I see a new facebook posting about another ugly person that is engaged... I find myself drowning in chocolate wrappers and buckets of confused tears. Like WHY?! HOW?! and AM I REALLY LESS DESIRED THAN HER?! And now you know that my inner monologue is a cold hard bitch... awkward. This depression used to happen around major holidays, because most men that want to get married prefer to kill 2 birds with one stone. For instance, take our beloved Christmas holiday. Instead of getting you something you’d actually want like a Wii or an ipad, instead “Mr. Right” gave you himself... for... forever!!!!!! And I heard that it is frowned upon to return this gift (or regift maybe that would be positive adultery?)... well at least in my Catholic Culture. Therefore, I will not get married. However, this manic depression has grown darker thanks to our liberal ass politicians who are making gay marriage a thing. Do get me wrong, I LOVE THE GAYS!!!! Although, my fragile heart can’t take it. So I think that if you get engaged you should keep it to yourself or delete facebook because engagement is joke you should really only share with your grandma. Besides facebook is really only for stalking Exes and potential new exes... your happiness does not belong in my news feed.
Mi corazon es negro y frio porque tu.
How do we have people who value such trivial things in the world yet we still have murder? There are many different fights around the world, some end in tears and others in death. Aaron Alexis will have a lot of press about him in the next few days and I feel for his family. How much pain can one soul bare before it explodes? Every time we, Americans, hear about another mass shooting gun laws are up for debate, but this man was one of our own. This man fought for our freedom one time. This man isn’t a “terrorist” by definition but he is a coward. He is a coward because he murdered 12 other individuals before committing suicide. He is a coward because he left a family to mourn his death and suffer the wrath of his actions. He is a coward because he has put fear in the lives of many. This story may not get as much press because the people killed were not children. However, the issue remains the same. We remain in a country we deem as “safe” because we do not have the same problems as other countries such as Syria. We often fight their battles to create this better “whole world” society, yet our own soil is tainted by blood of yet another mass murder. I do not have the answers, I am merely a twenty something looking for hope again. In a perfect world everyone would be happy and there’d be candy everywhere. But we do not life in a perfect world. We breath and walk around everyday praying that greatness will come our way. Remember no matter how bad of a day you are having, you have the courage to continue throughout the day. You are capable of happiness because you have not given up on hope. Hope is all we have, it can not be taken away by anyone but ourselves.
I know its been a while since I've posted some top hashtags, and my buddies at An OK Podcast challenged their followers to If God Was My BF and I couldn't resist. Here are the best tweets.
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd finally have an orgasm.
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd always have wine.
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd be the one getting nailed.
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd have 3 boyfriends. #HolyTrinity
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd resurrect Him every night. #JesusChrist
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd never have a pregnancy scare... because life is in his hands.
#IfGodWasMyBF I'd own my personal holy grail.
#IfGodWasMyBF I might make it to heaven.#IfGodWasMyBF He wouldn't leave me hanging. #Crucified
#IfGodWasMyBF it'd be unbelievable. #MomDoNotHateMe #GodDoNotSmiteMe #IDoBelieve
For tweets didn't make the blog cut follow me @Lauren_Lewis_
Hiding from greatness is the scariest thing one can achieve. If you remain safe in your bubble of insecurities you will never truly live. You will remain trapped by your fears as they slowly drain the hope from your soul. No matter where you were raised, if you do not leave to experience a different place, you are living what you know instead of the unlimited possibilities you could know. Opportunities in live to do not rise from thin air, they are created. Staying home all night watching netflix will not help you find a boyfriend. It may seem crazy but most strangers do not know where you live or care that you love binge watching shows on netflix. We are in a digital world, yet telepathy doesn’t exist. I’m 85% the way there, but I will never desire to read your safe, alcoholic, orange is the new black thoughts. One of my pet peeves is listening to people gripe about their life when they do not attempt to do anything for it. I know that you believe if you want a baby that the pelican, from the vlasic pickles jar, delivers it in a bassinet tied with blue or pink ribbon... and this is why so many naive teenagers become pregnant. All in all, if you desire success, change or to impact the world you need to consume risk and embrace the opportunity it creates.
Every tear is wasted when one does not act but stands still wishing for greatness.