Stupid People Tuesdays - The Feared Change

I have been writing a lot of music and lyrics lately; some funny and some serious.  My world around me is constantly changing and that scares me most.  In the past 3 months I have graduated college, found an apartment and started a new life.  And as I reflect on the past I laugh at the stupid things I did, like all nighter after all nighter.  I pushed myself so hard, to be stand still in my twenties.  Yes, today I am showing that I am the stupid person because I am scared to try.  Scared to show you another side of me.  Someone vulnerable underneath are the sarcasm.  In honor of chipping a piece off my cold shoulder I am releasing one of my sets of lyrics that are from a dark time in my life.  If you are ready, I guess I am too.

Home (2012)

As my wind spins - my soul aches
as the season change - I break
As the night falls - I’m lost
and I’m cold - bitter frost.

Where is Home? 
Where is Home?
is it a house with blue shingles and a picket fences? is it letting go?
Where is Home?
Where is Home?
is holding the ones you’re supposed love? is it letting go?
I don’t know.

No boundaries - no set in stone
No permanent - letting go
No wonder - no second guess 
Serenity and emptiness

Where is Home? 
Where is Home?
is it a room with your life on display? is it letting go?
Where is Home?
Where is Home?
is it knowing where you are supposed to be? is it letting go?

cuz,
people leave, people always leave people
people leave, people always leave people
people leave, I always leave people Home.

Where is Home? 
Where is Home?
is it walls holding memories of younger times? is it letting go?
Where is Home?
Where is Home?
is it moving away from everyone and letting go?
Cuz I can’t let go.

Letting go of the past, does not mean you lose who you are.
-cynical sugar